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You always said there is no xxx else, but there always is, and really always has been. You just dont tell me. How many times did you tell me that you were going to begin seeing someone else? and how many times did I find out you were seeing someone else? I never found out from you, except once.....after the fact, and yet.... another friend. You tried to hide it early on in case I was informed, (I suspect), and I believed you......it wasnt until later that I found out the truth.(most recent) In retrospect, I wish I had kept walking when I overheard that fateful so long ago. You remember that xxx ....you told me you wouldnt be able to me......then there I was with my friend (and apparently yours) when you ed him. Especially now considering the last time we talked. You admitted to me about you being physiy incapable of telling me. If I had only known way back then. But the fact remains that most recent promise means more to you, regardless of how you minimize it to me. If you had told me way back then you were incapable.....I would not have become more involved with you.I knew how I felt about you early on. I cared for you so much that I knew if I were to find out about something, from some way, other people, etc. other than directly from you, it would hurt....a lot.....and guess what...It did, and still does. I dont understand why you couldnt just tell me. Since that overheard , Ive tried to create some distance in order to not get hurt, but that doesnt seem to work either.I still end up crushed by your actions, and then your attempts to make me feel better about it just seem to make it worse.Especially our last . To tell me that you made a promise in your "meaningless" relationship that outweighed the promise to me........Then to tell me that it was to protect them........That was some nerve. You got balls lady. I wanted to you so bad on your B-day, but couldnt finish dialing. I was actually asked if the flowers were from me. I wasnt sure how to react, and was shocked someone would even ask that. I hope I didnt appear shocked. I am a wreck not talking to you, not hearing from you, and especially not wishing you a Happy Valentines and Birthday, and dissapointed that the flowers were not from me, but after our last conversation I couldnt bring myself to contact you, (even to simply wish you a Happy Birthday) as bad as I may have wanted to. I know now that you are physiy incapable. Thats what you said in our last . I only wished you had said that to me in the beginning. Knowing that, helps with my decision to not talk to you. I cant keep doing this and wondering. Regardless of our completely jacked up situation, you wont/wouldnt and didnt tell me anyway. That gives me some solace in not talking to you, and trying to get over you. (yeah right) I keep telling myself that you have proven youre not going to tell me anyway, and it would only happen again, Bakersfield horny girls Warwick cinemas tonight and again, Bakersfield horny girls Warwick cinemas tonight much like it already has. I deleted you because I couldnt spend any more time looking at your name constantly wondering where you were and then checking to see if he was gone too. It was another reminder that was always staring at me. I spent way too much time just looking at your name in front of me on the computer, wanting so badly to talk to you, but knowing that it was a waste of time. Like I told you before...shame on me, (fool me once...) I should have known better, a long time ago, but I couldnt stop. I had to be around you talk to you, see you every opportunity. Guess I really am a dumb J...... Regardless of my rant, sounds like things have "progressed", and I sincerely do hope things work out for you. I miss you terribly, and not a minute goes by that I dont think of you. But now I know I cant talk to you, the xxx thing I asked of you, really the only thing, you have been unable to keep sacred, and in protecting your "meaningless", you forgot to protect me,.....you hurt me again. I really thought this last time I would get over what had happened (no foul, no harm), and at some point remain friends, (even though initially thoroughly pisssed) ....sort of... until you mentioned the fact that you promised,.... that was the final straw. I am done being hurt by you, that does not mean I still dont care for you, it means Ive learned a very hard lesson that will not be forgotten, and never again repeated. I just needed to get this off my chest. I know you wont read this, but not like I can tell anyone, and its eating me up. As I sit and read this, and re-read it.....the question still plagues me.......Why couldnt you just tell me?.........I ask myself that question constantly. I just dont get it. It seems so easy, and was the only thing I asked. I cant help but wonder and think that things might be different if you had just told me. If youre wondering if this MIGHT be for you...its likely not.No reason to send e-mails asking. If the person reads it, (not likely) they will know immediately. Im not going to post initials or anything crazy. Again purely a rant to.....really not sure why, other than to RANT and get it off my chest. Maybe its even in the wrong section, and should go to RANT. But thanks for listening. American Girl la recherche dami franais ou franais canadien. xxx ladies want adult fucking.